A note for you

I can't stop it
I don't even want to try
Its like getting closer puts me further away
And every morning I find myself
Reaching out to something that's not even there,
Who is the foolish one really?
My bad I said it wrong,
Need more time?
Fill in the blank and make a note of it.
I find those notes and don't remember writing them,
I feel its a game for the youth
And im getting too old to play
Joints rust and fall apart like battery acid
Eating through the centre of the earth,
Making my little words spin around in an meaningless circle,
Its better than burning out and crashing into a tree, keep stepping,
keep hiking, keep moving they say,
No they don't say a word because all the words are....
Are nothing,
I want to go away but I have nowhere to go,
I have a van but my fuel is running low.
Airplanes flying by
Blinking lights in the skyy
Dark in the night lights up a spark
Battery depletion and timestamps for everything,
Much like the lights in the sky,
But looking down to earth moving along a path.
Deeper into the nights and more and more notes
Falling like loose leaf resting on pillowcases and sheets,
Still all alone to wrestle memories into the light and remember where
they're from.
Hide my face in the pillow and remember to forget, remember where I've
been
And the places I see, oh and that coffee drenched map is no longer
anything of use, except maybe for toilet paper,
But my thoughts are too heavy like a turtle turned on its back open to
attack.
I find the rhyme in the reason and the pattern in life.
I swear im so close, but it holds me off waiting for my partner, my
cover. Wait! Whose got my back?
Where did you go for so long and when are you coming home?
So many questions, I don't need answers to
Like so many leaves that now cover the cold novemember ground,
And it feels so special to me because everything is new to me. Not
everything but anything. Anyways
I keep pacing back and forth to keep things lit, its sick not ill.
Standing in place
Running around
One or the other
Nobody cares because nobody knows.
Its a bold statement, cold and blunt,
Today is firday
Read this shit anyways
Anyway

Stainshane